Thursday 9/12/13:

I know I originally said I would incorporate my counseling sessions with my bar/club/party experiences but I thought this was way more important that one of my counseling sessions I've been to, and plus this all has to deal with what I talk about during my sessions anyways, so here it goes :)

 9/12/13 1:00pm

After talking to one of the faculty members of the dance department I felt good. She told me that she supports me with whatever I decide to do and she is willing to help me in any way means possible. But she also gave me some really good advice on what steps I should think about to do next with my foot injury. I guess you can say I left on a pretty positive note. 

2:00pm

I then met with my Athletic Trainer who I have been seeing since my first sprain of my ankle, FYI: I sprained my left ankle twice last school within a one month period which caused me to have Posterior Ankle Impingement now. Well my Trainer told me that it will be a pretty long recovery and that if the treatments/exercises don't work then we would have to talk about other options, for example cortisone shots or even surgery. I can't imagine having to get surgery so I am going to do whatever it takes so it doesn't get that far.

3:45pm

The decision seems to get harder and harder as the days go by. I thought I knew what I wanted to do but whenever I talk to someone about it, it makes me hesitate to tell my family the final decision.  I wish life wasn't this hard and someone would just give you an outline of what to do step by step. But let's be real the world would be one boring life and we would have no obstacles to overcome and grow from. So I guess I'm just complaining for nothing and making a big deal for no reason.

But with all notes aside, this is a difficult and complicated period in my life. And yes I do accept that once I overcome this roller coaster that it will help define who I am but as of right now I can't help but to cry out for help!! So I ask of all of you or those I have gone to for help to when you are giving me advise to be careful and think twice of what you are going to say. Because the advise you give me can easily manipulate my decision to be what you want for me and not what's best for me. 

I believe that's what's  causing my mind to continue to run around in circles, and I'm running out of breath, the wheels are starting to rust, I'm running out of time, and I just need a break! 

7:00pm

I got the chance to speak with my dean and it made everything better! She gave me the reassurance that my plan of actions is great and she supports me %100. She even told me that if she was me, she would do the same thing. 

12:00am

I finally made the decision and told my entire family and they completely support me which is defiantly making everything easier and I know all they want is what is best for me and I believe right now in my life, this is what’s best for me. So I guess all's that's left is to tell all of you...This is my last semester at School of The Arts. It’s been a difficult decision however I think it will be good for me. I don't know exactly what I will be doing next but I will soon figure it out :)