Everyone Has Those Days:

There are those days when everything is getting better and I start feeling hope for my dance career due to my foot injury. But then there are those days when all I want to do is chop my foot off because of the unbearable pain. The feeling is unbelievable, it gets stuck, stiff, when I point my foot something in the back pops, and it feels as if there is a sharp bone making its way to the surface of my skin.And when I have those days all I want to do is cry my eyes out, I feel that my foot is hopeless and it is never going to get better. But then again I could be over reacting as I usually do.

However what makes these days worse is that during my dance classes, usually when it’s at a very slow pace and I am bored, I start to think about all the stuff I need to get done.

Here’s a lovely list ;)

- Withdraw from school

          (which means I need someone from my department, financial aid, housing, director or res life, student accounts, and register office to sign a piece of paper)

- apply for schools for next semester

- apply for schools for next school year 

- find out how much the schools cost and what school accepts my credits from UNCSA

- start sending my belongings home $ L

- pay for my orthotics for my foot more $ L

(Orthotics are specially made insoles that go in your shoe to help with people that have arch             problems with their foot)

- get better supported shoes $ L

And the list goes on and on and never ends.

So you can just imagine my stress level right now but it helps having such a supportive family and friends that help me whenever I need it.  And even though I have made my decision it’s getting to me; when I bought my flight ticket (one way) and when I packed my first box of belongs that I am sending home. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh it literally feels like more work and stress getting ready for the next path in my life I am going to take than when I was trying to decide if I wanted to stay or leave, weird huh? 

Thursday Night:

So Thursday night my friends and I went to Last Resort again. Honestly I just needed a drink and I really liked last Resort the last I went so I figured I would have a good time, even though I would have rather used a different location for this week’s post. It was nice, definitely a different feel since last time we were celebrating my friends 21st birthday so that meant tequila shots, and that always puts Carlos in a good mood. 

Of course I had to start the night off with Last Resorts bucket drink and you are in luck I remember to take a picture this time. But something that I noticed while being there, if you order your bucket from the outside bar, you get less. The inside bar fills it up higher and it taste better too. ;)

Oh and before I forget if you like draft beer you might want to start ordering that from the beginning because they will run out super quickly. This is because a cup is $1 and a pitcher is $6. I'm not an expert but I believe that's a pretty good deal. 

Going back to my night, I had a great time but I think my first time will always be my best time there. Everything has to do with it, the people, music, drinks, etc. But nevertheless I will always have a great time when I go. Something I noticed while drinking is that I get really protective of my friends, which isn't weird but it gets to the point where I will get in someone's face if they disrespect my girlfriends by slapping their ass or anything else. My friends call it SDD, straight drunk disease. :D 

Friday Night:

Now Friday night was a completely different environment, I went to a house party and let me tell you I was bored out of my mind. First of all it was a party for a student that just turned 18, enough said. Note to self never party with people that are younger than you because they either can't control their shit or are super immature and sloppy! I was literally sitting down on twitter for most of the time. 

A few friends and I later went to a different gathering that was going on as well and yea, let's just say thank goodness my weekend started on Thursday because I've realized I'm not into the whole house party scene. It's just not that fun being around drunk sloppy people who you know and there's no one dancing. At least at clubs and some bars people like to dance and have a good time. Plus by going out into the community you get to socialize and meet new people that are one thing I've enjoyed so far being 21, is the socializing. 

Thursday 9/12/13:

I know I originally said I would incorporate my counseling sessions with my bar/club/party experiences but I thought this was way more important that one of my counseling sessions I've been to, and plus this all has to deal with what I talk about during my sessions anyways, so here it goes :)

 9/12/13 1:00pm

After talking to one of the faculty members of the dance department I felt good. She told me that she supports me with whatever I decide to do and she is willing to help me in any way means possible. But she also gave me some really good advice on what steps I should think about to do next with my foot injury. I guess you can say I left on a pretty positive note. 

2:00pm

I then met with my Athletic Trainer who I have been seeing since my first sprain of my ankle, FYI: I sprained my left ankle twice last school within a one month period which caused me to have Posterior Ankle Impingement now. Well my Trainer told me that it will be a pretty long recovery and that if the treatments/exercises don't work then we would have to talk about other options, for example cortisone shots or even surgery. I can't imagine having to get surgery so I am going to do whatever it takes so it doesn't get that far.

3:45pm

The decision seems to get harder and harder as the days go by. I thought I knew what I wanted to do but whenever I talk to someone about it, it makes me hesitate to tell my family the final decision.  I wish life wasn't this hard and someone would just give you an outline of what to do step by step. But let's be real the world would be one boring life and we would have no obstacles to overcome and grow from. So I guess I'm just complaining for nothing and making a big deal for no reason.

But with all notes aside, this is a difficult and complicated period in my life. And yes I do accept that once I overcome this roller coaster that it will help define who I am but as of right now I can't help but to cry out for help!! So I ask of all of you or those I have gone to for help to when you are giving me advise to be careful and think twice of what you are going to say. Because the advise you give me can easily manipulate my decision to be what you want for me and not what's best for me. 

I believe that's what's  causing my mind to continue to run around in circles, and I'm running out of breath, the wheels are starting to rust, I'm running out of time, and I just need a break! 

7:00pm

I got the chance to speak with my dean and it made everything better! She gave me the reassurance that my plan of actions is great and she supports me %100. She even told me that if she was me, she would do the same thing. 

12:00am

I finally made the decision and told my entire family and they completely support me which is defiantly making everything easier and I know all they want is what is best for me and I believe right now in my life, this is what’s best for me. So I guess all's that's left is to tell all of you...This is my last semester at School of The Arts. It’s been a difficult decision however I think it will be good for me. I don't know exactly what I will be doing next but I will soon figure it out :)

The Last Resort:

This was my first time here and I had a great time with my friends celebrating my friends 21st day. However it was very interesting going here because it was manly a place for Wake Forest students and it was quite obvious. You either saw current Frat or Sorority members or soon to be members. Majority of the men where in polo shirts and Sperry's.
What I didn't like is that there was a dance floor which is obviously suppose to be used for dancing but considering the amount of people that was at Last Resort, there was no one dancing, a waste of space! However I really liked the set up of the place: two bars, one outside and one inside, pool table inside and a patio outside where people can dance if they like. Of course us Art School kids who are also dancers took advantage of the space outside and dance the night away. I think that is what made it so fun for me, which was the people that I went with. Which I believe has a huge impact on the experience.

Their drink special are pretty good in my opinion for someone who just turned 21 and they also have this thing called the Last Resort Bucket I believe, I could be wrong but it is only $6 and it is a mixer of random alcohol, juices and sodas. Also each time it is made it taste a little different do to what is available at the moment. I diffidently recommend it!