In Carlos’ Shoes: My Tribute.

Similar to Carlos my sophomore year I injured myself. Actually I injured my knee and we all know how dancers are if one thing goes wrong.  It’s like the whole world is falling down. This feeling only occurs because we love what we do so much. Actually we all experience pain in every art form, being an artist you automatically sacrifice something of yourself in order to be here.  While being here you will be on an emotional roller coaster. For example: like being depressed or sad while injured is common, and literally goes hand and hand that it cannot be separated. Being and college while this happened gave me an outlet to go to parties. When I was injured and I drank more than usual, I went out more often, and this to me was a way I relieved my stress.

This is how artist school students are when they first come to college

This is how they are the second year when you feel too cool for actual school and the freshman.

This is how dancers are when they are injured.

This is how we are watching dance classes

This is how we cope with our problems. 

And this is how we are drunk

Most of times I find myself being like the guy in the background of these pictures at parties

Being Carlos this weekend I attended two parties this weekend. One was in center stage and the other was 1910 the ugly Christmas sweater party.

This is how I got ready.

Center stage                                                                    

 Step ONE!!!! Apply a lot of make on your face when I say a lot go for it. The goal is to not look like yourself and look like your favorite Disney channel star.

I got dressed in a really cute outfit                                                 

 I wore a black crop top with clack high wasted 

pants with heels.

This was the one party where I did not drink

and stayed sober so That’s why I decided to

wear heels.

We went to the party in center stage and had a good time. Overall I did not have to drink to have a good time. I enjoyed myself because of the company that kept me but I AM NOT BASHING DRINKS!!!

 Here goes nineteen ten……

 The first thing I did was get FUCKED UP!!!!!!

WE pre-gamed before anything so when I got dressed and did my makeup I must say it was not my best at all actually its really funny cause while I was getting dressed all I could remember was telling my brother Andrew that the Christ max sweater idea is a hot mess. To be honest I was told I said “Everyone was gonna to look like little minions and I was going to be a star"……….LOL.

The things drunken people say…

Here are the selfless I took of myself while getting dressed/pre-gaming/ talking shit.

These are all the stages of diva I hit that night as you can tell by the crazy filtered picture that I was feeling myself and though that at one point I was Zoe Saldana. 

We walked to the party and the on our way there just being ten times more alive we sang our favorite songs there and laughed and glorified the end of our semester. While I got there I just thought about how much of a  great time I was having and me and my friend Kevin decided if you can't be happy you can at least be drunk. Many people don't realize this but alcohol is one of the top things college kids over use is college. Why do you guys think we think? Or why do all of us drink? Does it satisfy you does it give you happiness or does it make you forget about all the things that suck compared to the awesome time you may be having. For me and other dancers we acknowledged we drink more and gain weight under more stress as we walked into the party my favorite song was playing.

This was Body party by Ciara. The music they had there that night was so good, want to know why because the dancers were djing.

They played songs like

Chris brown Love more

Miley Cyrus 23

Miley Cyrus we can't stop
Savage Red nose

Savage Gas Pedel

and many more song that anyone could  twerk to, speaking of twerking when my song Red Nose came on i started doing the dance and some girl came up to me and asked could we play better music…………..I LOOKED AT HER CRAZY for that was the  best song to me at the moment. I purely ignored the little girl and didn't reply. God must have not liked me that night because twenty minutes later I popped my knee out of the socket. I wasn't shocked but I was sadder. It was like I automatically lost my buzz. I sat down with my friend Lloyd and realized that trying to stand up and dance wasn't an option that at that time while being slightly drunk I had to acknowledge that I was injured. That I felt paralyzed and was annoyed by people asking me if i was ok… I mean I felt like they thought I was crippled. It was that moment I had to deal with my chronic injury, after thinking that I would be able to avoid it or escape my problems by drinking. I learned a lot Saturday night it was one of the best night of my life and the worst at the same time. The message that you can’t run away from your problems, because they will chase you is true. So I want to tell Carlos that I understand how you feel and how being injured can weigh you down but I’m happy you are addressing now and not running away from it. Cause you don't want to have a chronic injury or feel paralyzed for life.